Showing posts with label relationship. Show all posts
Showing posts with label relationship. Show all posts

Tuesday, 14 April 2009

call-break

I think it’s nothing but common to all of us that we say things and do nothing to substantiate it. And then we say some other thing again. I think we all have been taught this by some way or the other that ‘actions speak better than words’, but nope we don’t follow and we won’t!

Okay to make it simpler I think I should add one example – okay… ummmmmmm k got it… now it goes like this- there is this friend of mine who used to call me a lot and I used to enjoy chatting with him and then he started calling me at odd hours when I was either busy or didn’t want to talk to nobody. It is not that we no longer had things left to talk about… nope we certainly had a lots but I just cannot talk to him all the time. And so whenever I was busy I used to tell him all sorts of stories and cut the phone.

Now human beings also have this tendency to consider oneself as smarter (if not smartest) at least than the immediate person. And so little did I realize that this guy knew it all, that I had started ignoring his calls. And one day he just told me this, but I am a good actor [ ;) see da smarter part comes into play here again] and I rejected his genuine grievances. But having done that I had altogether made a fool of myself, as I knew this guy will again start calling whenever he gets bored or excited to share something, so I had to think of a plan to call it a day. So I called this guy a day later and told him that the way he talked with me wasn’t very good and I can’t tolerate such things even from such a close friend like him, coz beyond all things what I care the most is my self respect. And this is how I got rid of him for at least a time being.

But the question still is very much the same- m I still considering myself smarter here? Or the guy clearly knows that I have got so many assignments and tests to tackle than to just do time- pass with him ?? Now the thing is simple enough we say things but fail to substantiate it by deeds, but the irony is people here aren’t blockheads. 

Thursday, 17 April 2008

am feeling guilty...


Although this ain't my normal nature to be such.. but it's been a year or so that i have been feeling guilty for a very stupid reason. i cannot narrate the actual story but yes can dictate in my own terms.... but one thing is for sure that i still dunno wat i did long ago was right or wrong... i genuinely have not been able to decode dis outta my mind.... yes a bit complicated it is i agree !! n off course lil personal too, and i even dunno wat da 'person' thinks or thought bout it. but yes 'da person' has clearly hinted of dis speculation of mine dat 'da person' was hurt when i did that.... call it my ego.. attitude.. whatever but when i did do da thing which i did long ago... it was for a reason... a reason which i had conclusively brought out after analyzing situations n other circumstances wich prevailed at dat point of time.... i would never had done dat, coz i myself had to suffer a lot after that.... n i thought dis won't last long n things wud be fine... not always things go da way u count on... n things turned bitter and bitter.... but i always wanted it to be the way it was... alas it din happen i started feeling guilty.... which i have been for so many days now...... at last i just wanna say this to 'da person' wich i never have said so far..... I AM SORRY ! coz i know wat i did was not right but m writing it from my heart that i din want to do that..... i still feel it at times that- gosh ! this should not have happened....